Another Day Another Dollar

Well today I got called in to work. Benefits of being casual...(well the 2nd job is casual) I'm saving up for the trip to Brizzy at the end of the month.

My daughter took the latest pic...was about to go for a walk. Not looking real happy about life and realized looking at that pic that I still have such a bloody long way to go. Some days it's like climbing that never ending hill. Sometimes I think I concentrate too much on numbers. If I think of the different clothes that I'm wearing, the way I move and the feeling of clean living..haha if that makes sense?? I realise I have already come such a long way.

I don't think the goal of 65kg is too low. Some have said maybe it is...I dont think so. I am still struggling with this getting under 90kg. Why..well..it's an emotional wall...some weird protection system. Maybe I will feel better about myself and think I deserve more and don't want to face what repercussions that will have in my life. Who knows...maybe it will allow me to let go of the emotional baggage and have some happiness again. Have to get there and see hey??

I'm going to try this next week to eat less carbohydrates. I really am an addict of breads and rice etc. I don't feel better eating them...but I crave them. I keep within points but know I feel better on veges and fish...seriously...I really like them so I can eat them easily...I guess it's the convienience??? toast and soup is totally my fav small meal. I also love eggs on toast. I need to go back to omelete with veges...filling frees soups and lots of grilled fish.

I can do that...actually..I'm kinda looking forward to it...and the 89.9kg that will follow...haha

Take care all...luve yas.x.x.x